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what would you do or feel when the opportunity you've been waiting for so long is just a step away but.... you have to let it go??..They called me last Tuesday to ask whether am still interested with KPLI. Apparently...i was choosen for the second intake session which start last Monday...I was speechless for a few minutes then reality struck me...i cant...am about to pop in few more days ( to be exact lagi 10 hari)..yg menambahkan kesedihan..the teaching institute is just around the corner of Bangi..approx. 10 mins from home..memang very-very convienence for me. If i have to go somewhere else far, maybe i wont feel that bad to let it go...it really wasnt meant to be...MD pun rasa a bit sedih but then he reminded me that insyallah there will be a better opportunity for me waiting in the future.

As for now..am a bit anxious and nervous as the EDD is just few days away. Haaziq and Aqeelah are excited that every day they asked about the baby...semua preparation dah siap..actually there are not much to prepare since aqeelah and haaziq baby's stuffs banyak..just little bit here and there yg nak kena tambah. I had diferent birth experience with my two kids. Aqeelah was born in Kedah Medical Center, Alor Setar..( coz i was too afraid of giving birth in South Africa-- yup MD)..she was induced and the labour was not that long..tapiii sakitt woo kena induced. Haaziq on the other hand, arrived right on the due date and this time the nurses at Norwich and Norfolk University Hopsital, UK said..let nature do it course..no induced what so ever. The first stage of labour was about 6 hrs but as soon as my water bag burst..Haaziq dah selamat keluar. He weighed 3.515kg. Aqeelah was a bit smaller..2.95kg. And for my third baby...doctor said it's going to be around 3kg +. My belly is huge..--well that's what i think..but most people who see me will said.."keciknya perut..baru berapa bulan" heheheh....kecik...macam ikan paus adalah..hahah..anyway...wish me luck..doakan semuanya berjalan dengan mudah dah lancar..